“You are the strongest,most fearless beautiful woman I’ve ever met.”
Jackson: I know it might not be what you planned or how you planned it, but we can do this. We’ll get married, have an awesome kid, be amazing parents — I’m in.
April: Don’t say it if you don’t mean it.
Jackson: I mean it. We can do this.
April: You really think that —
Jackson: You said it yourself. Something that feels this good, cannot be bad.
April: You-You really want this?
Jackson: I want this.
We get married. We’ll have a house, get a big yard —-
April: And we have a wedding ?
Jackson: And we have a huge freakin’ wedding.
April: In a field with butterflies —
Jackson: Butterflies, a field — whatever you want.
Okay? Your family is gonna be there. My fam—my crazy mom is gonna be there. She’ll probably bring Webber— whatever. That’s fine.
April: … are we really doing this ?
You sure? We can do this?
Jackson: We can do this.
April & Owen - 9x23
Because sometimes that’s all that keeps me going
Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone. It isn't just death we have to grieve, it's life. It's loss, it's change.And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, hurt so bad, the thing we gotta try and remember is that it can turn on a dime. That's how you stay alive, when it hurts so much you can't breathe? That's how you survive. By remembering, one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much. Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its on way . So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty. The really crappy thing, the worst part of grief, is that you can't control it. The best we can do is let ourselves feel it when it comes. And let it go when we can. And the very worst part is the minute you think your past it, it starts all over again. And always, every time, it takes your breath away. There are five stages of grief, they look different on all of us, but there is always five. Denial, Anger, Bargaining Depression, Acceptance.
I give up.